Letting the Light in …
On December 21st last year, Winter Solstice, I flew half way across the world to start the process of finally making peace with my grief (having lost my beautiful Mum 9 months before) and to embark on some deep healing. I arrived back to the UK refreshed and rejuvenated from all the yummy Light energy, and special times in Mother Nature with family and friends. I was ready to Bring It. But the Universe had other ideas and thew me some serious curve balls…
2 nasty injuries, loosing work, missing Mum desperately, grabbling with loneliness and overwhelm, the relentless wet and bitterly cold dark days, not knowing where to park my grief, starting therapy - having to surrender to trust with a total stranger, and opening up old scary wounds. Doing the Shadow Work… It was intense, ugly, painful and brutal. I felt as if I had taken *huge* steps back when surely I was meant to in a better place by now. It wasn’t meant to hurt this much. I was angry, and felt so alone in the world.
One of the hardest lessons for me was relinquishing my expectations of others; understanding that grief and loneliness are still, sadly, almost taboo subjects in this country, people will avoid them at all costs, unless they too are taken down and stuck in the trenches.
I came to a sense of understanding that no matter what pain I was in, sometimes, you just have to push through it on your own. One of the NLP presuppositions, which is now a constant go- to for me, really helped:
“People are doing the best they can with the resource they have available”.
I realised that no matter how much people loved me, they didn’t always have the space, or capacity, to be there. They had their own world of shit going on. I get that now but my gosh, it’s not easy… If you happen to be reading this and my story resonates - please reach out. I got you.
You see, wounds can lead us to a different path, a path of profound connection and transformative growth. Once I got my head around that, things got easier. I found a sense of Acceptance in myself, and with the situation. I stopped blaming others and tuned within. I embraced all the messy, vulnerable emotions with compassion in my heart, checked my ego, embarked on some serious deep change work, started manifesting, coaching, attracted a mentor, and got my head down. I continued the healing growth journey, staying sober, continuing with the plant medicine, and being accountable truly to myself. I delved and dug deep into my being, on a singular mission to use my pain as a positive. To push forwards purposefully, grateful for the lessons.
So once and for all, I could turn my visions into a reality: to start doing what I truly believe in - helping and inspiring others through all my studies, and continued learnings, elevating consciousness through authenticity, and transparency, and spreading the message of LOVE.
We are in this together, you and I. All of us connected cosmically, and for a greater purpose - one filled with infinite possibilities.
Summer Solstice is a time to celebrate the Light of consciousness within ourselves, and within each and every one of us; to reflect upon the potential for our consciousness to awaken and stir, to expand all the more, personally and collectively. The bright Sun influences our pineal gland - our Third Eye - which is known as the seat of consciousness, or as the seat of our Soul.
It is said that the Solstice brings a thinning of the veil, allowing the world of Spirit and the world of the material to feel far less separate. It is also said that on the Solstice eve, the entire energy grid of the planet moves into harmony, allowing us to connect with Spirit with greater ease and the healing powers of Mother Earth.
Beauties, revel in the magic. Walk barefoot on the grass, ground, sit under a tree, listen to the sounds of the birds, Mother Earth in full flow. Journal, stretch out, breathe and embrace the power within to keep evolving. Ready to dance in to the second half of the year stronger and wiser.
Today is the perfect opportunity to connect to our true self, our Highest Self, for our Highest potential... And the perfect day to launch Return to Source to the world, for continued healing, collaborations, and transformation. I’m excited to share this journey with you.
With Much Love, G. x